The thing with me, is that it has become more often and stronger my feeling of “flee or fight”, which in part brings adrenaline to the moment. I can’t stand the fear before a full adrenaline moment, even though afterwards I feel like the most powerful person for achieving it. But if I feel once a week the fear before the adrenaline, why would I want to feel it getting on a rollercoaster, bungee or sky diving? That is me and my panic attacks every week, except that instead of feeling stronger, I feel weaker and tired as if I had fought with a bear. Let me learn to cope and deal with those negative anxiety moments and then I will enjoy a good adrenaline shot.